I've Started Noticing my Friends

That title is not complete truth. I have always been aware of my friends' existences and have been actively involved in most of their lives, but recently I have begun to notice connections in my friends. Like similarities. Soo I shall list a few of them:

 - Very few of them are my age, most are older or younger.

 - Almost all of them are Christian.

 - Most of  the time they're mature, especially for our age--or their age if they're older/younger than me. Emphasis on "most of the time".

 - Most of them are academically advanced.

 - Most of them enjoy writing--whether they're good or not and whether they know they are good or not lol--and reading.

And the final realization...

 - Most of them are guys.

I am a teenage girl. I am not "eye candy". Not really anywhere close. Let me give you a brief description of myself:

 - 5'3"

 - Two feet of blonde hair

 - Green eyes, although they change shades

 - Light freckles

 - Straight teeth after over a year in braces

I guess I have a good figure, I'm like 120 lbs, I'm not outstanding appearing in anyway... I think I am rather ugly, really. Maybe I'll post a pic for you guys..? I don't know, anyhoo, this is why I do not understand why I have so many guy friends.

I am not even a nice person.

I do not know how I have friends of either gender.

I. Am. Not. Nice.

I. Do. Not. Like. People.

True story! I don't like people! So many people are so self absorbed and stupid and mean that I do not see the reason for liking people! I do like some people, like my friends, and I suck it up and smile when I'm around the people I don't like--and there are plenty of those--but in the end I will tell you what I think of you. Sometimes I am tactful about it and feed it to you in small portions, but other times I get pushed over the edge and end up just biting your head off.

In the end, you'll know what I think of you.

And that is why I do not understand how I have so many friends! I am brutally honest. Painfully, brutally honest. I actually don't think I have that many friends--I certainly don't have a lot of people who really know me--but I am informed that I do. They count my facebook friends. *runs to check Facebook* And I only have 422! Yeah I know all of them, but it's not like they really know me.

They know that I'm brutally honest.

That's kind of about it.

Anyway, this was a really rambling post but I have posted in a long time so there ya go. Now you know about my friends and how I am honest. There ya go.

Smile, m'dears, you might hate everyone around you but there always is a reason to smile(:

 ~ Jessica

Cassandra is a Meany Poo Face!

Cassandra Bloom is making me write this.

She is forcing me.

She has a knife to my neck through text messages in the form of offering to write more on my favorite story of hers. It's like a knife. I don't do it and I don't get anymore of the story. It's unfair!

Therefore, Cassandra is a meany poo face.

So I shall talk about her and my writing since there is nothing else to write about... Cassandra is the next big sensation. She's good. But she doesn't believe me. No matter how many people tell her she is amazing, she does not believe us. Her characters... They're real. Her writing is descriptive and captivating, drawing you in with every word, like an ocean current.

My favorite story of hers is currently Unnamed, it doesn't have a name so that is what we refer to it as lol, and that is the one that is like a knife to my neck right now. She even put a character in it for me ^.^ It has a depth to it, and underlying sense of true feeling. I love it. She needs to finish it.

She calls that story childish, but if that is childish than my writing is like prenatal-ish. I don't even LIKE my writing. Like, at all. I hate it really. The only reason I keep writing is because I enjoy it and people ask me to. I think they read my stories out of pity, though. I don't think there could be any other reason.

So there ya go, a blog post.

Smile on m'dears! :D
~Jessica (:

Music is an Amazing Thing

Sometimes the world is on your shoulders, weighing you down, and there is not one darn thing you can do about it. Yeah, it sucks. A lot. Like terribly. We've all had those moments, though, so I really shouldn't need to explain to you the pressure and horribleness of those phases.

There are a few things that get me through this times: Writing, my amazing friends, Jesus and music. I find that talking to my friends and Jesus help me realize where I am going wrong and where I can fix things, and writing helps me organize my feelings, but music is my escape. 

The rise, the fall, the suspense... It all comes together, drawing me toward it so enticingly I can't resist it. I find myself lost in it's warm embrace, letting it carry me away into a land where I am no one and know nothing. I close my eyes and suddenly I'm not me anymore.

I'm the strings on a guitar, the keys on a piano, the bow for a violin... Whatever you can think of, I'm there, I'm it. I'm the instrument, the singers voice, everything about the music invades me and carries me away. I'm no longer struggling to breathe under the weight of the world, instead I'm thin air. So free and weightless, it's so amazing to be free even it is just for a moment.

Gosh I love music <3

The AWARD!

What would you know?! I just won a blogging award! Thank you to the beautiful Miss. Cassandra Bloom! Thank you so much! The pride is too much! Thank you, thank you, thank you! Ok, calm down, calm down... Seriously, please, stop clapping. I have a thank you speech to give, people! Fine, whatever, thanks Cassandra, my family and my friends. And the two people who follow me. Thanks people. Whatever, clap ok. Thanks bye.

Haha ok seriously, thanks to Ms. Cassandra and thank you for reading this. I would appreciate it if you'd follow me and if you do, then I will definitely check out your blog ^.^

It's beautiful, is it not?

RULES (from the creator): If you are awarded the Paperclip Award, you must answer the 13 prompts given, and then you must give the award to 13 bloggers (although, as the creator of the award, I’m giving you permission to give it to less, or more, and bend the rules a little) and give a link to their blogs. Also, no awarding the blogger who awarded you! Got that?
1. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?
Oh at one point I think I wanted to be a professional horse rider... But for the past several years it's been  a best selling writer. 2. What is your ultimate favorite place to be?
Hmm... Toughy. Well I personally like it when it's a bit rainy and cold outside, so I can cuddle up in a recliner with a good book or my laptop to write and a nice big cup of hot chocolate. I've been officially banned from coffee. Thanks, like I needed that one!3. Name one famous person who inspires you. (Just one!!!)
Just one...? Probably Christopher Paolini, because of his success in writing and he started published his first book when he was 16 which went best seller about a year and a half later. Definitely an inspiration. 4. Tea or Coffee?
Coffee. But I'm banned. Stupid caffeine.5. If you could be any other person for 48 hours, who would you be?
My dog. He has it easy.6. What is your earliest memory?
Hmm... Probably walking around on cement blocks in front of our old house when I was three, as my parents were packing the travel trailer so we could move. 7. If you could ask anyone in the world, living or dead, anything, who would you ask, and what would you ask them?
I'd ask Jesus to sign my bible.
8. What is the scariest thing you have ever done?
Gone in for surgery. 9. What is your favorite book?
Hmm well I have several lol, see two posts ago.. Two posts, right?? Yeah, two posts.. I think...
10. Briefly explain one of the weirdest dreams you have ever had.
Weirdest?? I can't remember weird... But when I was younger I had a nightmare again and again I had a nightmare that a big huge bat came into my room and was dragging me away. I tried to scream, but couldn't, then my mom came into the hallway but she couldn't see my and she just called my name. Then the bat flew me out to two men who took me to a bar and drowned me in front of a whole bunch of drunk people in a barrel. Yeah. That was fun.
11. What one song best describes you? (Feel free to post a link to a Youtube vid)
Secrets by OneRepublic12. Pen or pencil?
Pen!
13. Is 13 an unlucky number or not?
I don't give a crap.

Ok so now I get to like give people the award...? But I don't know a lot of bloggers.... So um yeah here are a few!

1. Cassandra Bloom: I give it back to you! lol you got me hooked on blogging and are one of my bestest friends. Te amo! Hahaha you don't have to answer the questions again though :P

2. Paperclip Girl: I haven't known you very long, and you did start this, but I'm still going to give it to you! Super sweet girl!

3. Ashton Phoenix: I've known you for a bit, so I give this to you! lol

So yeah that's really it... And if you really feel the need to take this.. Then yeah I guess you can xD

I Miss You

No, you don't know I'm talking to you. And if you have an inkling that I might be talking to you, then I'm probably not.

Point being, I miss you. I miss you a lot. I miss the way we used to talk. I miss the way we used to laugh and have fun. I miss your friendship. I miss the way I could always count on you. I miss you.

Just so you know, you've grown annoying. I miss what we used to be. I miss it all. I miss it a lot. I miss you.

K thanks bye.

Need Something New to Read??

Then you've come to the right place! See, as it happens, I am a book fanatic. I must admit I have not read the Twilight saga or the Harry Potter series (well, I've read the first three but I'll talk about that in a minute...). This is simply a personal choice. I have never had any desire to read Twilight, the movies suck and the glimpse at the first book that I did take completely disgusted me. Do not ask me to read them... I won't. As for the Harry Potter series... Well, their very well written--I did read the first three books, but you know that ;), and I've seen all the movies--I mean, really super entertaining, and the movies are definitely put together very well. But I don't like the magic. I read about magic all the time, fantasy is by far my favorite genre, but this is real witch craft and I don't like it. I know people who have gone wiccan over the HP books.

Soo moving on to that list. As I like organizing things, I am going to group them in shorter books and longer books. So here goes:

SHORTER (About 300 - 400 pages)

Hunger Games (Suzanne Collins) - We all knew this would be first. The three books (Hunger Games, Catching Fire and Mockingjay), all of them about 400 pages, are some of the best books I've ever read. Definitely contenders for my #1 favorite series. They are riveting, exciting, the characters are real... And lots of twists. I'm a fan of twists. I must admit that I was a doubter before I read them. I thought they would be stupid, but I couldn't be more wrong. Description: A girl has to fight in the Hunger Games, where she either kills or gets killed. There can only be one victor, she must choose between love and her life.

Heir Apparent (Vivian Vande Velde) - One of my all time favorite books. I've read it at least a dozen times. If I have nothing to read, I'll just pick it up and read it. I never get tired of it. Description: A girl gets caught up in a virtual world, normally just a game, where she has to either win the game or loose her life.

Need (Carrie Jones) - Another all time favorite, along with the other books in the series Captivate and Entice. The fourth and final book is to be released later this year. Description: A girl is roughly thrown into the world of pixies and weres (shape shifters) after the death of her step-dad.

Books of Ember (Jeanne DuPrau) - I've read the three books (Prophet of Yonwood, City of Ember and the People of Sparks) a few times. Their entertaining, not my favorite but not a boring read. Description: An image of the world in the future, what it'll be like and how we'll survive.

Fairest (Gail Carson Levine) - Another book like Heir Apparent, these are my two favorite books to re-read and re-read when there is nothing new to read. In fact, I love all GCL's books. Most of them are short and sweet and fun to read. Description: An ugly maiden tries to find beauty and finds her life in danger along the way.

Thief Lord (Cornelia Funke) - So entertaining! I love it! This is one of Funke's best, along with the Ink trilogy--but I'll get to that later, it's riveting. Description: A band of thieves in Venice trying to survive, but their leader has his own secrets.

The Series of Unfortunate Events (Lemony Snickett) - I've read the entire series and it's fantastic! I love how the author throws in how he was searching for this as if it were real. Love reading the hints for the next book after the story. You have to read them in order though, if you don't them they will not make sense at all lol. Description: The Baudelaire orphans have to conquer all odds to survive after their parents are killed in a house fire.

The Wish (Gail Carson Levine) - Like I said, all her stories are fun to read, she does spin offs of old fairy tales mostly, but this is one of her original books and I love it! Very fun to read! Description: A teenager makes a wish to be popular, but it backfires with unforeseen difficulties.

LONGER (Well.. Their longer :P)

Inheritance Series (Christopher Paolini)- #1 favorite series of all times. Eragon, Eldest, Brisingr and Inheritance. Of course, the Hunger Games is really giving it a run for it's money. Definitely a tie now. But beyond that, nothing has ever come close. It's exciting, riveting, unexpected, amazing. The last two books are the best, but you have to read the first two in order to understand them at all. They only break for a few days to a week or two in between the books. Description: A teenage boy finds a strange rock that turns out to be a dragon eggs, he becomes the only rider besides the evil king and must face him.
(^^ The movie for Eragon is stupid, don't watch it, the books are better.)

Ink Trilogy (Cornelia Funke) - Inkheart, Inkspell and Inkdeath. This is another really good series that I'd highly recommend. I go back and read them all the time, I love them. The mix between drama, love and action is exquisite. Description: A father and his daughter are gifted with the ability to literally bring things out of the books they read aloud, unfortunately something has to go back in to replace what comes out. They bring characters into our world from a book.
(^^ The movie for Inkheart is stupid, don't watch it, the books are better.)

The Infernal Devices (Cassandra Clare) - Two books so far: Clockwork Angel and Clockwork Prince. To tell you the truth I haven't read Clockwork Prince but I have read Clockwork Angel and I am getting into CP once I finish the series I'm on. CA was amazing and I'm sure CP will be just as good. Katniss from the Hunger Games is up against Tessa, from the Infernal Devices, for the YA Fiction Heroine for 2012! Not sure who to vote for yet... Description: A girl finds herself thrown into the world of make believe characters, or what she thought was make believe, to try and find her brother.
(^^ It's companion series, the Mortal Instruments, is also supposed to be really good.)

The Trickster's Series (Tamora Pierce) - Tricksters Choice and Tricksters Queen are some of the most amazing books I read. Pierce really did it with these. I want to read it's companion series, the Song of the Lioness quartet, soon. Description: Daughter of the first Lady Knight is kidnapped and sold into slavery in an enemy country.

So there you go, a whole bunch of books for you to read!
~Jessica <3

Addiction... It Hurts

Yes, I'm an addict. I am addicted to...

The Hunger Games series!

Like oh my gosh you have no idea! I am going insane over these books! I've been listening to "Girl on Fire" (by Arshad) all day and am about to freak out waiting for the movie! Of course, I can't see it opening day so it's like another week or two for me :(

But I am still totally addicted and it does hurt... Because I just can't get enough.

And I really want a guy like Peeta but ya know that's different story ;)