The Undeniable Truth...

Let's just say that there is one honest truth on this planet and it is that I have only ever finished one story that is not school related.

Okay so maybe not the only truth, but a truth nonetheless.

There, I have blogged.

Adios! Smile on! :D
~ Jessica <3

You Broke it, Stop Expecting Me To Fix It!

This is to you, friend who does not read my blog and never will and lives out in internet land,

GIVE IT UP!

I AM SO SICK OF THIS!!

Okay. So that was a little dramatic. But really... I'd like to vent. And I am tactfully telling her the truth, remember in the last post?? I'm attempting to use tact.

And I know she doesn't read this, so in the meantime I will scream it out on my blog. Which has a total reader number of: 0.

So you're not even reading this... Funny how that works, huh?

To this person..

Shall we start with your choice in guys?? You keep complaining about a "broken heart" when you would be dead if you really had a broken heart so shut the heck up! You don't know what pain is! You have lived a comfy little life with everyone waiting on you hand and foot. You think you are things that you most definitely are NOT. You are a girly little spoiled.. Well okay. Yeah. You are not who you think you are. I know you. I know this. You say these things to everyone but you just aren't!

I started with guys so let's keep going on this... You say you love a guy and then you two have a fight and you keep expecting me to fix everything. I am your cornerstone, I am you only support, I am it. Aren't I? You want me to fix you and to fix this problem and to fix your future. Well I am perfectly glad to be there and help, but I can't help you if you aren't willing to help yourself.

That's the honest to God truth and you know it.

I am so sick of you abusing the word "love". You don't love him, you like him. Get it straight. If you loved him, you'd love him forever... Not just a few months and then be over it and straight onto the next guy. Oh yes and you keep tormenting the old guy even though YOU are the one who screwed it up. You are the one who ruined everything yet you act like he is the one who did it.

Get. Over. Yourself.

You are a lying little spoiled brat who's full of herself and can't appreciate what she has.

Just sayin'.

So sorry my posts have been so depressing lately.. Not that you're reading this.. Guess I just need to scream in a quiet place..

Always smile, m'dears, even when you want to tell someone that ^^ (:
~Jessica <3

I've Started Noticing my Friends

That title is not complete truth. I have always been aware of my friends' existences and have been actively involved in most of their lives, but recently I have begun to notice connections in my friends. Like similarities. Soo I shall list a few of them:

 - Very few of them are my age, most are older or younger.

 - Almost all of them are Christian.

 - Most of  the time they're mature, especially for our age--or their age if they're older/younger than me. Emphasis on "most of the time".

 - Most of them are academically advanced.

 - Most of them enjoy writing--whether they're good or not and whether they know they are good or not lol--and reading.

And the final realization...

 - Most of them are guys.

I am a teenage girl. I am not "eye candy". Not really anywhere close. Let me give you a brief description of myself:

 - 5'3"

 - Two feet of blonde hair

 - Green eyes, although they change shades

 - Light freckles

 - Straight teeth after over a year in braces

I guess I have a good figure, I'm like 120 lbs, I'm not outstanding appearing in anyway... I think I am rather ugly, really. Maybe I'll post a pic for you guys..? I don't know, anyhoo, this is why I do not understand why I have so many guy friends.

I am not even a nice person.

I do not know how I have friends of either gender.

I. Am. Not. Nice.

I. Do. Not. Like. People.

True story! I don't like people! So many people are so self absorbed and stupid and mean that I do not see the reason for liking people! I do like some people, like my friends, and I suck it up and smile when I'm around the people I don't like--and there are plenty of those--but in the end I will tell you what I think of you. Sometimes I am tactful about it and feed it to you in small portions, but other times I get pushed over the edge and end up just biting your head off.

In the end, you'll know what I think of you.

And that is why I do not understand how I have so many friends! I am brutally honest. Painfully, brutally honest. I actually don't think I have that many friends--I certainly don't have a lot of people who really know me--but I am informed that I do. They count my facebook friends. *runs to check Facebook* And I only have 422! Yeah I know all of them, but it's not like they really know me.

They know that I'm brutally honest.

That's kind of about it.

Anyway, this was a really rambling post but I have posted in a long time so there ya go. Now you know about my friends and how I am honest. There ya go.

Smile, m'dears, you might hate everyone around you but there always is a reason to smile(:

 ~ Jessica

Cassandra is a Meany Poo Face!

Cassandra Bloom is making me write this.

She is forcing me.

She has a knife to my neck through text messages in the form of offering to write more on my favorite story of hers. It's like a knife. I don't do it and I don't get anymore of the story. It's unfair!

Therefore, Cassandra is a meany poo face.

So I shall talk about her and my writing since there is nothing else to write about... Cassandra is the next big sensation. She's good. But she doesn't believe me. No matter how many people tell her she is amazing, she does not believe us. Her characters... They're real. Her writing is descriptive and captivating, drawing you in with every word, like an ocean current.

My favorite story of hers is currently Unnamed, it doesn't have a name so that is what we refer to it as lol, and that is the one that is like a knife to my neck right now. She even put a character in it for me ^.^ It has a depth to it, and underlying sense of true feeling. I love it. She needs to finish it.

She calls that story childish, but if that is childish than my writing is like prenatal-ish. I don't even LIKE my writing. Like, at all. I hate it really. The only reason I keep writing is because I enjoy it and people ask me to. I think they read my stories out of pity, though. I don't think there could be any other reason.

So there ya go, a blog post.

Smile on m'dears! :D
~Jessica (:

Music is an Amazing Thing

Sometimes the world is on your shoulders, weighing you down, and there is not one darn thing you can do about it. Yeah, it sucks. A lot. Like terribly. We've all had those moments, though, so I really shouldn't need to explain to you the pressure and horribleness of those phases.

There are a few things that get me through this times: Writing, my amazing friends, Jesus and music. I find that talking to my friends and Jesus help me realize where I am going wrong and where I can fix things, and writing helps me organize my feelings, but music is my escape. 

The rise, the fall, the suspense... It all comes together, drawing me toward it so enticingly I can't resist it. I find myself lost in it's warm embrace, letting it carry me away into a land where I am no one and know nothing. I close my eyes and suddenly I'm not me anymore.

I'm the strings on a guitar, the keys on a piano, the bow for a violin... Whatever you can think of, I'm there, I'm it. I'm the instrument, the singers voice, everything about the music invades me and carries me away. I'm no longer struggling to breathe under the weight of the world, instead I'm thin air. So free and weightless, it's so amazing to be free even it is just for a moment.

Gosh I love music <3

The AWARD!

What would you know?! I just won a blogging award! Thank you to the beautiful Miss. Cassandra Bloom! Thank you so much! The pride is too much! Thank you, thank you, thank you! Ok, calm down, calm down... Seriously, please, stop clapping. I have a thank you speech to give, people! Fine, whatever, thanks Cassandra, my family and my friends. And the two people who follow me. Thanks people. Whatever, clap ok. Thanks bye.

Haha ok seriously, thanks to Ms. Cassandra and thank you for reading this. I would appreciate it if you'd follow me and if you do, then I will definitely check out your blog ^.^

It's beautiful, is it not?

RULES (from the creator): If you are awarded the Paperclip Award, you must answer the 13 prompts given, and then you must give the award to 13 bloggers (although, as the creator of the award, I’m giving you permission to give it to less, or more, and bend the rules a little) and give a link to their blogs. Also, no awarding the blogger who awarded you! Got that?
1. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up?
Oh at one point I think I wanted to be a professional horse rider... But for the past several years it's been  a best selling writer. 2. What is your ultimate favorite place to be?
Hmm... Toughy. Well I personally like it when it's a bit rainy and cold outside, so I can cuddle up in a recliner with a good book or my laptop to write and a nice big cup of hot chocolate. I've been officially banned from coffee. Thanks, like I needed that one!3. Name one famous person who inspires you. (Just one!!!)
Just one...? Probably Christopher Paolini, because of his success in writing and he started published his first book when he was 16 which went best seller about a year and a half later. Definitely an inspiration. 4. Tea or Coffee?
Coffee. But I'm banned. Stupid caffeine.5. If you could be any other person for 48 hours, who would you be?
My dog. He has it easy.6. What is your earliest memory?
Hmm... Probably walking around on cement blocks in front of our old house when I was three, as my parents were packing the travel trailer so we could move. 7. If you could ask anyone in the world, living or dead, anything, who would you ask, and what would you ask them?
I'd ask Jesus to sign my bible.
8. What is the scariest thing you have ever done?
Gone in for surgery. 9. What is your favorite book?
Hmm well I have several lol, see two posts ago.. Two posts, right?? Yeah, two posts.. I think...
10. Briefly explain one of the weirdest dreams you have ever had.
Weirdest?? I can't remember weird... But when I was younger I had a nightmare again and again I had a nightmare that a big huge bat came into my room and was dragging me away. I tried to scream, but couldn't, then my mom came into the hallway but she couldn't see my and she just called my name. Then the bat flew me out to two men who took me to a bar and drowned me in front of a whole bunch of drunk people in a barrel. Yeah. That was fun.
11. What one song best describes you? (Feel free to post a link to a Youtube vid)
Secrets by OneRepublic12. Pen or pencil?
Pen!
13. Is 13 an unlucky number or not?
I don't give a crap.

Ok so now I get to like give people the award...? But I don't know a lot of bloggers.... So um yeah here are a few!

1. Cassandra Bloom: I give it back to you! lol you got me hooked on blogging and are one of my bestest friends. Te amo! Hahaha you don't have to answer the questions again though :P

2. Paperclip Girl: I haven't known you very long, and you did start this, but I'm still going to give it to you! Super sweet girl!

3. Ashton Phoenix: I've known you for a bit, so I give this to you! lol

So yeah that's really it... And if you really feel the need to take this.. Then yeah I guess you can xD

I Miss You

No, you don't know I'm talking to you. And if you have an inkling that I might be talking to you, then I'm probably not.

Point being, I miss you. I miss you a lot. I miss the way we used to talk. I miss the way we used to laugh and have fun. I miss your friendship. I miss the way I could always count on you. I miss you.

Just so you know, you've grown annoying. I miss what we used to be. I miss it all. I miss it a lot. I miss you.

K thanks bye.